My discovery of anxiety occurred in
November. I say discovery because I
really did not understand what an anxiety attack was until I went through it. I
ended up in the emergency room. I didn’t
know what was going on, but I felt like something in me finally snapped. The
physical aspect of an anxiety attack is overwhelming. It’s different for each person. I felt like I was dropping from a roller
coaster and the fall wouldn’t end. I
later developed the quite unusual symptom of feeling like my body was on fire.
I quickly did what I had to do to get
myself back on track. I called a doctor
and got put on anxiety meds. I also
started seeing a counselor. I called my
Mom and asked if she could come and help with Josh. When I call for help it is major indicator that something is seriously
wrong with me. I never ask for help. My Mom arrived to help with Josh. I was fortunate that she was able to come and
assist me. I’m not sure what I would
have done if she didn’t come.
The day of my doctor’s appointment
finally arrived. I was so relieved. Everything went well and as I left with my
anxiety medicine prescription I climbed
into my van and nothing. I turned the
key again and silence. I literally sat and hysterically laughed with Jimmy
Buffet singing in my head “if we couldn’t laugh we would all be insane.” Thank God I had my script in hand or my
laughter may have lead to mad insanity.
Over the next week I took my van to three mechanics, dropping a few
hundred dollars at one of them, only later to find out that my van was going to
cost a whole lot of money to fix.
Needless to say two months before my van was paid off we parted ways.
Trying to climb my way back to my own
normalcy hasn’t been easy. I have made a
couple of mistakes along the way, but I can assure you I am on my way back
up. I
am a Christian and I know that God has something better in store for
me. He’s just cleaning out all my trash
right now.
I hope through my experience you
realize that if you are going through something get help.
I waited and I suffered greatly for
it. I didn’t go through all of the
details, but I went through hell. Don’t
wait. If you need help get. Go to your doctor, a counselor, your minister,
somebody just don’t deal with it yourself.
Don’t lose yourself in a spiral of anxiety or depression. You can live a content and happy life. Why would you accept sadness. I started to feel the anxiety again this week
and I immediately called my doctor.
Anxiety is mental. You can
overcome it. I have a child that relies
on me he can’t wait for Mommy to feel better.
Feeling Stressed? Have a drink.
(Stress and Anxiety are not the same
thing)
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