In keeping with the theme of anxiety and I just got to me I wanted to post more about... ME! Trust me I am not conceited, but I am working on it. For so many years I have not been happy with myself. I haven't been smart enough or pretty enough. I thought I was boring. I felt like I had nothing to offer anybody.
Many people feel like this. Depression and anxiety affect around 14 million people each year. I am not alone. We are raised in a society that pushes for more. Good is never good enough. I am here to say you are good enough. Don't let other's insecurities affect how you see yourself. Sometimes we have to go back to a time when we were carefree and just be silly and forget about our stresses.
I feel my best when I am being myself. I am goofy. I love to be loud and obnoxious. I love to sing and dance like a wild woman. Society tells me as a 37 year old mom I need to be mature and serious. I am responsible. My son is very well cared for. I make sure he has food, shelter, love. I make sure he is taught to be kind and to respect others. I make sure he gets to all of his appointments. I work with him everyday with walking, standing, climbing, communicating,self feeding. (For those of you that are new here; my son has special needs). Why do I have to be serious? Why do I have to be the type of parent my Mom was, my neighbor is, or like the woman I saw at Target? If you are not putting your child in jeopardy you will never hear me judge your parenting skills.
Why do I let other people tell me how I'm supposed to act? I'm not hurting anybody. Actually, I strike up friendly conversations with strangers in the grocery line. I am a very kind, loving, and helpful person, but I have friends and family members tell me that is a ridiculous way to be. I dance through my house and have been asked to stop. I will not change for anyone anymore. I will try with all of my might to be true to myself.
Keep in mind I am serious when I have to be. I don't dance and sing all over town, but we all have the right to let loose. If you aren't hurting anybody do whatever it is that makes you happy.
I have someone in my life that constantly puts me down. I started to believe this person. I am taking my control back. I will not allow someone else to dictate my self worth any longer. I hope you learn to let your hair. Learn to be yourself. Learn to love yourself.
Today's lesson: Be true to yourself.
Tonight's homework: Run around your house singing "Girls Just Want To Have Fun,' at the top of your lungs.
Men you can sing "Boys Don't Cry."
Best post yet! Dont change yourself for anyone...i like the loud, funny, obnoxious Michelle!!
ReplyDeleteI'm learning to like me too. It is a process to get back to me.
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